as you age you let go,
your values change,
the line between needs and want blurs,
in fact, needs and wants swap positions.
happiness diminishes
sadness amplifies,
thoughts more convoluted,
you relinquish dreams,
you live and let live,
while living and dying bit by bit inside.
what you want, you cant,
what you cant, you must.
realistic obligations ensues seconds after you kick back and envision future,
for that future is deemed too far to hold, too amorphous to picture.
do i not want the balance you seek,
exclusive to, unappreciated by, the
handful privileged minority.
| at 2:34 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
what if i tell you i think i'm too old to keep trying, and i'm just going to give it a rest.
it's tiring to convince myself to apologize all the time whether it's you in the wrong or me, it's so bad that i'm actually convinced that most of the time it's me
HA.
maybe it's really me.
somehow you can do things which i cant. somehow you can say things which i cant. somehow i can be hurt all you like but no, you cant get hurt at all, somehow all the money's spent by me, somehow you're always right, and i'm always wrong.
| at 2:40 AM
Thursday, August 06, 2009
it's so damn disturbing that you're still not telling me the truth, not even when everything's been over for so long, yeah, you're nod and echo me, it's been so long!
shouldnt that be the reason to you opening up then? no you dont, and i trust you ever will.
so dont you blame me for not being truthful with you either,
times when i get into this sort of psychoproblematic state, i just, dont want to hear from you.
| at 10:41 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
i dont think you actually care. no
on a superficial level yes.
but in aspects which you need to compromise your own health and well-being.
no.
| at 1:35 AM
Friday, February 27, 2009
darling i miss you so much!!! i'm sniffing everywhere in my room to try to get the faintest of ur smell :((
how? i hua-chi :/
my poor baby is sick again. and as much as i'll like to kiss kiss hug hug her, i don't wanna disturb her rest so she can recover fast fast.
i hope i get the cheap nokia phone tonight! then you can throw away ur L6 (finally!)
